For When You Try To Sleep Darling

If you ever feel alone
think of my belly against the small of your back

If you ever feel cold
remember the heat that I give off

If you ever feel afraid
think of the place in my chest where you would rest your head

If you ever feel ugly
remember the way my eyes look at you

If you ever feel sleeplessness
think of how I pet you to sleep

If you ever feel inconsolable

remember how I cried with you

If you ever feel the distance

think of how my love can reach across the oceans

If you ever feel you are unlovable

remember the mountains I have climbed to love you

If you ever feel you have too much to carry

think of how I helped you take the weight

If you ever feel unquenchable

remember how I satiated those thirsts

If you ever feel exhausted

think of how your eyes close easily when we sleep

If you ever feel...

remember...

I Take The Fire, I Take The Flame

I think I miss you much more than you could know
At night when I'm hollow and I close the door
I thought that maybe you'd be by my side
When I'm at the market alone in the aisle

My left hand is shaking
When I reach for your fruit
I never drew pictures, I never drew pictures
My head hears the voices
The whispers on high
But they never told me, They never tried

I took your hand with me down by the water side
I knew that you might have been pulled deep down under the tide
I took my time delivering my bad news to you
What I never wanted, what you'd never do

My butter is melting
Inside this hot rain
I never moved on dear, I never moved on
I see their faces
I see their pain
I never moved on dear, I never moved on

I take the fire and
I take the flame
You never ate cashews, you never ate cashews
I fall apart here
As I take the reigns
My timing is awful, my timing is awful

And I smell the berries
And I smell your hair
Na na na na na na, na na na na na na
I take the car keys
And you clear the air
Na na na na na na, na na na na na na

I'll call the doctor
You call the vet
Their voices are louder, their voices are louder
You'll tell me your ready
And then make me wait
It wasn't my timeline, It wasn't my timeline

I drew the fire down when we laid ourselves back in bed
You said you were freezing I pulled the blanket up over our heads
You tried not to worry, you tried not to cry
But you never thought that I......would

I carried the groceries
You put them away
I never smiled harder, I never smiled harder
I cooked our dinner
you watched some TV
I never smiled harder, I never smiled harder

We turned down the volume
we sat down to eat
It made me so happy, It made me so happy
The Yankees were winning
I cleaned off the stove
The dishwasher humming, the dishwasher humming

Asleep on my shoulder
You started to snore
I write in the kitchen, I write in the kitchen
I jotted some lyrics then
Turned out the lights
Slept in the next morning, slept in the next morning

You bring me the virgins
I'll turn back the tide
In these little moments, in these little moments
You parted the Red Sea
I flooded the Nile
In these little moments, in these little moments

The kitchen seemed quiet I woke up the next day alone
Lydie was hungry she made it quite clear I woke slow
Cold tile in the bathroom a note on the door
Drank left over coffee wondering if I'd dreamed it all up

I look out the window
A cat plays in the grace
Of the sun that we made here, the sun that we made here
My slippers protect me
They keep my feet warm
We made our own home here, we made our own home here

Don't Love Me This Way (New Song)

I knew you

sometimes better 

than you knew yourself 

you were hiding 

in your pain 

unaware

Oh...And I would surround you for a moment in time

you pulled me in 

into the ashes 

where you once loved

It swirled 

around me 

the short river of time

Oh...And I was beside you and miles away

And it was okay 

When we would play 

Where we would stay 

But don't love me this way...

Oh...Don't love me don't love me this way 

Don't love me this way...

(Listen to it in the Songs Music Box on the right)

The Linear Nature of Time

The hours seem like seconds

I cannot catch up to the busy hands

of time itself.

She pushes forward, ever faster

She eats our pasts, leaving only the shell

of the essences of what once was.

These empty fragments, echoes of reality

stored in soft tissues, so fleeting

Informing every action, reaction

And we cannot escape them

no matter how we try

We are every moment that led up to this moment

We are made up of these

Cracks in our spirits, 

and yet she softens them with time

except for the unfortunate

with a recall too vivid

she attacks these soft tissues

Her march unyielding

until we are left with nothing

Perfect

you are perfect, not in memory, but in action

a perfect creation. you. your gift

a reflection of perfection unseen, unspoken

given, when unfettered, free of irony

53 Words.

There is No Shame.

There is No Guilt.

There is No Loss. No Gain.

There is No Time.

There is No place.

There is No Danger. No Pain.

We've done what we have done.

We've had all we have had.

We've said all we have said.

There is No Distance.

No Denial.

No Redemption.

Only Change.

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And, as always, the lies are told

The sweet art of self preservation

And we start to believe in them

A history of our mind's own creation